Boom! one shot 18 months.

I’m so lost,
Wednesday he’s sentence I miss call him to see whether his phones is on.
His Phone still on.
Saturday when I heard ah gou says tat he have been sentence.
My feelings was just down.
18 months!
Not again another left me.
How many close ones going to left me again and again!?
Yah, they did something wrong so they must bear the punishment.
But I just feeling real down! 18 months he will be out on 3 Jan 2011.
Eveythings Is so sudden!
Although we are not together for a period of time..
He always says tat he doesn’t wants to hurt me!
But the truth is his reactions tells me that he doesn’t wants to see me in this state.
I force him to speaks the truth but I failed he just doesn’t wants to tell me?

The day I’m beside him.
Eveythings seems to be as normal back to usual.

When he didn’t saw me? He walked over to meimei and asked where am i?
When he don’t even speaks to her whenever he saw her?
When I was there he will always pass me a can of drinks or to share drinks with him,
When we didn’t even speaks to each other neither.
When someone pass me to hold on to something, when he saw tat he will always q and scold the person.
This Shows?

(A lot more to say)

He’s really protective towards me.
But just that inside his mind no ones know what is he thinking about?
I know you are worried about my health.
You wants me to visit the doctor but I’m just too stubborn and I just don’t wants and you threaten me.
Once you almost threaten me till I almost promise you.
The love care and concern from you is still there, and you know too! My love care and concern for you is also there.

What am I going to do next?
When I step into Long chen gong you was not there.
When I saw the two precious you was not there.
When I saw dage or ah chen you was not there too!

Eveypeople i sees usually,
Evey place I used to see you usually,
You will not be there anymore.

Tell ME?
Everywhere I go there’s a shadow about you!
How am I going to heal my wounds?
How long?
I’m not so strong as you think as,